I forgot I was letting go.

At the end of last year, I let go of a way of being.  A 15 year way of being.  I had let go of my private practice and it felt really good to be stepping into a new cycle of creation.  I could feel Eagle Medicine all around me, fluffling up my wings, ready to take flight.  I was ready for new.

Yet a part of me had not fully let go.  I had not fully completed that cycle.  Partially it was because I felt like I was trying to let go for so long.  Holding on to what no longer served.  So, when I took a leap into something new, I was still carrying the old.

And how could I not?  I had been in service to people who bared their souls to me.  Who trusted me with their hearts and allowed me into a part of their sacred world?

A few weeks ago, I knew that I needed a ceremony to release those 15 years, yet, my heart wasn’t ready.

How do you let go of something you adored and loved?  How do you let go of perceived comfort and security?  How do you release something that you identified with for so long?

This morning, spirit showed me my arms and hands.  I have been holding all of the energy there.  It has kept my wings heavy.  Making the expansion process a bit arduous and strained.

Sweetgrass medicine was calling me and as I burned my medicine I prayed.  I felt all of the remaining cords being cut.  I felt the freedom and lightness I had been wishing for.

Even though I know that we cannot rush through cycles, part of my mind wants to at times.  Our society breeds this, “on to the next” mentality.  There is beauty and pain in letting go.  There is deep healing in the honouring.

I had forgotten that I was letting go of something so profound and great.  Something I had poured my heart and soul into. All of the people who have shared their medicine in my sacred space have offered grace, love, pain, sorrow, brilliance, beauty and SO much more.

Letting go of something you love may be necessary, but it is never easy. 

This experience reminded me that I can take my time to mourn and release.  And that while I can love parts of my parts so deeply, I cannot take them all with me.  I need space.  Breath.  Release.

So, beautiful soul, if you are finding yourself nearing an end of a cycle, ask yourself what ceremony you need for completion?  How can you clear your arms from holding, your hands from carrying….so your wings can be free to fly?

Tell me in the comments!

Are you holding something in your own arms that needs to be laid upon the Earth for release?

p.s.

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