A journey of healing.

I can remember the very first time I saw an “official” spiritual healer.  I was 22 and in homeopathy school.  I had seen many alternative therapists to help me heal my body, but there was a calling to go deeper.  At the time I was in the middle of a Lupus flare and needed help.  There was a woman in my class who was a healer and my friend urged me to go and ask for help.

Asking for help, changed my life.

I laid on her table and she told me that in order to heal through this pain, I needed to feel it.  I had to stop taking the anti-inflammatories that I was on as it wasn’t getting to the root of the problem.  She told me some very important things about my spirit and what was impacting it.  She instructed me to create myself a sacred healing space before I went to sleep and then meditate on the pain.  Breathe through it, ask my guides for healing, place my own hands upon my body and she felt the pain would go away.

If I just allowed myself to feel through it all.  It would go away.

It sounded impossible at the time.  My pain was a 10/10.  I had been taking herbs and remedies and supplements.  Doing all the things.

I had nothing to lose and everything to gain.

So, I tried.  And the first night I was in so much pain I had to take some meds.  I prayed and asked my ancestors for help.  I cried.  I felt hopeless.  I felt angry that I had this body that didn’t seem to work properly.  It felt unfair.

But I kept trying.  And on the second night, my pain went down by half.  And by the third night it was gone.  Gone.

That night I had a dream.  All of my ancestors gathered around me and began to drum.  I could hear them singing and chanting to me.  Something had shifted.

I had reconnected to the power of my spirit and the connection of my soul.

I came home to my spirit, and my body healed. 

After that, nothing was the same.  My journey of healing my body included healing my spirit.  I was on a path of deep evolution and growth.

I believe that Lupus brought me back to myself.  It helped me to connect to who I truly am.  It helped me to find my medicines and activate the path of the Medicine Woman.

This is the path of the wounded healer.  Challenges, illness, struggles, all moving us towards the path of awakening.  I’m not saying that everyone finds their path this way or that we necessarily need to struggle to awaken our healing abilities.

But, it is the path I took and one that I know well.  It is why I can see people’s soul medicine so clearly.  The gold that alchemizes from the pain.  The gifts from the hardships.

I love holding space for transformation because I have seen, over and over again, how much is awakened when we move through the muck into our shine.  It’s a miraculous cycle.  Like a butterfly, illuminated and transformed.

For the last 20 years, I have been on this path and have moved through these cycles of darkness and light.  Many moments have tested my faith.  But at the end of every cycle, there have been miracles.  My body has healed.  Bit by bit.

But the biggest transformation has been in the illumination of my spirit.  Through all of the hardship, it still shines.  Through all of the illness, it continues to inspire.  My spirit is powerful.  And I trust, with all my heart that it will continue to move through this life with grace and beauty.

And it all started, with asking for help 20 years ago.  A space holder for me, who changed my life.

Healing is possible, dear ones.  I’ve seen it.  It lives within me.  I breathe it daily.  And it’s all possible for you.

A. xo

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